I’ve kept a lot of blogs (and before that was a thing, diaries) growing up, and they’ve always provided me with an outlet to speak my thoughts, be a lending ear to the jumbled mess in my mind. While friends and family are wonderful, sometimes I didn’t want to trouble them with my problems, even think through everything, analyse them, try to understand them… And most importantly, understand myself.
Self reflection has always been very important to me. I don’t know if it’s because I went to a Catholic school where we always had to write reflections, or if it’s because the hobby itself just contributed to solidifying that it was an integral part of my life. In any case, it’s something I’ve always had to do.
Once I entered university, my program was no stranger to the use of reflections. I guess since there was only so much I could reflect on, I stopped blogging on my own, unless it was a very personal topic; sometimes I would have sudden urges to just sit down and write for myself.
Entering medical school has opened a new chapter in my life. While I was extremely excited and grateful at first, feelings of fear and anxiety quickly arose. Aside from the “what if they sent me the wrong letter” fear, which, by the way, is now gone since school has officially begun, the “what if they made the wrong decision” fear is now looming over my head. I only hope to find what they saw in me, and to make all the people who have supported me through this process proud.
Which is where this blog comes in. I hope that this can be an outlet where I explore the new lessons I learn, the problems I encounter, and just some personal feelings while training to become a physician. It’s going to be a long process, but I know that it will all be worth it in the end.