I’ve spent the last year of preclerkship on the greatest roller coaster of my life. It’s been filled with ups and downs, and it’s been an incredible thrill.
But as I sit back and really think about it, I don’t know if that would be the best way to describe it anymore.
Pre-clerkship felt more like the initial entrance into the amusement park. You’ve waited in line buy your tickets, and you are excited. Finally, you get a well deserved reward for all of your hard work. Your hard earned money and time off… it all went into this one ticket into the park. Once you enter, it’s a whole new world. You pick a ride, and you go for it. But first, you have to navigate to the ride, make a couple of wrong turns, get a little sidetracked, and then wait in line. Finally you get there, and you’re excited. You are ready for this! I mean, that is why you’re here after all. You get ushered to the seat, and you buckle yourself up. There’s someone who tugs on your belt to make sure it’s secured, and then you are off. Pre-clerkship was the learning experience, trying to figure things out. Things start to culminate, and there’s an intensity building in your chest. The coaster is climbing up the highest point, and your heart is pounding. You know it’s coming, but you can’t help but feel scared. You’re so high, you know the fall is going to be exhilarating. In that split second, you can see everything below you, and you admire the beauty you have come face to face with.
Clerkship, I think I would describe that as the initial fall and the rest of the ride. It is horrifying. It’s going to be exciting and enthralling. I know that there’s going to be ups and downs and twists and turns and sometimes I don’t even know where I’m going. I’ll scream and I’ll laugh. Maybe I’ll cry (probably, I’m quite emotional), get a tension headache or terrible neck pain. Maybe I’ll doubt myself, then quickly realise I shouldn’t be doubting myself because this is awesome.
And this is the part where my comparison ends because I don’t know how it’s going to end.
I don’t know, but it’s okay.